boys boys boys

i am so so so done with this mixed signal crap. i'm tired of letting people walk all over me just because they pretend that they like me. This is stupid and i'm over it. Boys aren't worth my time, so forget that. i'm done. well for now at least.... :P

moving on from this

it's funny how my brain moved on faster than my heart did. I thought i was over you. I thought i was over this. But it turns out that all i can do i s think about you. All i can talk about is you. And when i close my eyes... all i see is you with her. I'm on the outside due to my own mistake. I don't regret what i did. It made me stronger. But i wish all of my dreams i had with you could become a reality. But it seems like what i wanted is creeping further and further away. Your words wounded me and left me alone with nothing but my tears. I forgive you even when you don't care to ask for my forgiveness. Even if your love wasn't real mine was. I don't know how to fix it. And i don't know how to change it. All i know is that you moved on and i can't let go.

armed and dangerous

I got my license today! My wonderful mother scheduled an appointment for this morning, and after jump start at herschel's with my church, i went to the DPS and got my license. It was super easy, and i didn't have to parallel park which was a relief. I think it was kinda a bitter sweet feeling for my parents though, because they were happy to see me so happy, but they were also extremely sad to see their little girl growing up and not needing them to drive them to school. 16 years ago today my mother was having me and now i can drive myself where i need to go. I know this is hard for them, but i am so happy that they trust me enough with this responsibility. I love my parents and i love my car!!

friends

it's a great day when you discover friends you never knew you had, but it is an even better day when you discover that you don't deserve your friends. I am so fortunate to be surrounded by people that love and care about me that it is incredible. I know that they love me and that they would protect me and stand up for me no matter what happens. I don't have to worry about being alone, my friends and family will always be there for me, to pick me up. Even when i don't deserve it. Thank you.

Rnagers

"'Father who art in TEXAS... Baseball be thy game. Thy will be
done. The AL Championship will be won. On the field, as well as in the
bullpen. Give us this day our bat and glove, and forgive us for our
errors, as we forgive those who homerun against us. Lead us not
into...defeat, but help us BEAT the Yankees. In the name of the f...ans,
Josh Hamilton and the Rangers... Amen. Go Rangers!'"

License

I only have 6 more days until i can get my license! i am so excited to be able to have the ability to take my self to and from places without having to depend on others for rides. Although i will only get to drive one person it will still be incredible to be able to go places with my friends and do things without depending on our parents. I am so happy that i beat the rule change. There is rumor that the new age you have to be to get your license is 17, but because i got my permit 6 months ago i beat the change and i get to get mine in exactly 6 days! 

Physical

So i just completed my first semester fitness gram. All i have to say about that is.... not fun. The worst part was knowing that after i did it i would have to go to soccer and work out some more. I hate running or working out during the day when it is hot and you have to go to class right after. After i work out, i like to just chill in front of the television or with a big tall glass of water. I hate running and then going to class knowing you smell terrible or sweating on your desk. I'm just miserable for the rest of the day and i'm in a terrible mood after i work out. I don't like to be touched and i don't want to be social. So here is a warning for all my friends, if i work out in the middle of the day and have to go to class afterwards, do not talk to or touch me... OR ELSE!